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Oh, yes, wow, i love the notion of taking place the offensive against my mom that is narcissist and dad. We accustomed quite enjoy baiting my mom simply for years, into revealing her own lies or contradictions and then slamming her with it to her face to where she COULD NOT deny/excuse/smokescreen/etc as she had baited me. She’d maintain a momentary state of surprise, cornered, helpless, plus it had been DEE-licious for me personally. I’d not drool and smack my lips, though, no no. I simply enjoyed the result after which, like she’d do after slicing my heart to bits, just keep on as if nothing had been taking place, simply select the conversation up from the nearby spot and move on, la ti da, style of that which you’d phone cat-and-mousing her. It absolutely was helpful to see on that level, at least that I could outsmart her. And she actually is pretty freaking smart, with many more several years of practice at tricky-talk.
Like many of us learn however, that types of engagement probably just escalates a war that will never ever be won.
However they had been priceless moments in my entire life where in actuality the lies was stripped away and here we had been: mom and child, stabbing one another until one knocks one other one’s sword down and sticks the purpose of her blade to your skin regarding the other. In my own brain, that is just what We felt like, and I also thought such as, “We could run you through right now, so we both understand it, that We spared your lifetime. therefore we leave this battle once you understand”
I did so that many times over in a several years’ time. It probably made her more guarded, more offended her to attack me more viciously behind my back at me, even more alluring a target for her to aim at, and no doubt, NO DOUBT, caused.
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